I didn’t blog for the entire 2 weeks (I think) and realised I gotta do it now.
2 weeks have passed, whole lots to talk about my holidays but I’m not going to just talk about it. So basically last Friday I went to my hometown and stayed there for 3 days, meant to stay there until this Sunday which is my sis’ wedding but even my Mum couldn’t stand the condition there; it was too hot and usually had electricity cut off (for the whole day!!), and there was nothing to do really. We just went around to visit relatives, that’s all. My other cousins were not back yet so I seriously didn’t want to stay there for the whole week! A lot of things have changed and so did people, and I don’t want to go into that.
Two things that I am looking forward to: my sister’s wedding and the trip to Singapore and Malaysia :D. But in the meanwhile, I’m trying to get some work done, since I’m not going out as much as before cause school has already started here last week for my friends and they have a lot to study (they’re in advanced/selective classes).
Had a (big) family dinner outing last week and met up with my close girl cousin, she’s 2 years younger than me but I can see that she’s already grown up! And I learned so many things from her, about my niece’s boyfriend passed away in an accident and she was sent to a boarding school. I wasn’t there but from what I heard it was very sad :(.
But apart from that, I learned that my cousins are playing with some ‘backstreet boys’ in my hometown and really, I know I shouldn’t judge but I don’t really trust those guys. They’re 18-19 and my cousins are even younger than me yet they act like obedient boyfriends, isn’t it a bit too unbelievable? They smoke, quit school ages ago and are working now. Ok, at least, at least if they were good people they wouldn’t have let/agreed/motivated my cousins to do things that adults considered as ‘naughty’. They played fireworks at the petrol station, and my cousin drove around (you don’t know how dangerous my road is now in my hometown, many people died from accidents recently).
I wasn’t in the same environment as them so maybe I don’t understand much, so didn’t really say anything cause didn’t want her to take it against me; we were close and I wanted to keep it that way. She told me about another cousin, that that one was really naughty and things; I was never close with her so I assumed it could be true. But when I met her she didn’t seem to be that kind of person, at all, and she told me things that were somehow different from what my close cousin had told me. All I could do was questioning myself which was the truth and who I should believe…
Get away from that, I’ve been sick for more than a week now. I’m much better now luckily, only coughing; was having fever for 4 nights in a row. -_- Thought I was going to die~ LOL nah, I don’t want to :P.
School. Has. Started. At. Last.
From today, I will be MISSING OUT CLASSES. =/ Gonna have to start catching up very soon on Civics and Maths work. I hope I will be alright cause right now I’m very nervous about school, maybe since Julia talked about it and watching my guy friend going for his HSC trials in 2 weeks. Seeing everyone around me doing work is just depressing as I’m being lazy, so I’m scared that I will die catching up work when I get back :(.
Yesterday I was going on Facebook (I’ve deactivated it for a while, only go on if I have something to do), and went to this Taekwondo guy friend’s and was looking at the photos from the Oceanic Championship that my Dojang mates attended a few weeks ago. Ok no way that he will read this so I don’t care :D. His photos made me admire him in a way yet feel ashamed of myself cause I’m a no-where-to-go person (_ _’). He knows what he wants to do and tries his best to achieve it no matter what! I always feel like he is so strong, maybe just because I know the story behind it… But I wish I know exactly what I want to do and where I belong, like him. He’s not a perfect dude, but has somewhere he belongs to perfectly. Like every of his photos, sweating, or with his bloody uniform after sparring… Made me feel something. When can I be brave like him? When can I be brave enough to strive for something I like?
I wanna do a tag post soon. :] Gotta go reply my girl friend’s email now :D. Talk again soon.